Father's Day

Well. Yesterday was Father's Day. And I have to say, the kids and I really lucked out when we got Seth. It takes a lot for anyone to take on someone else's child and treat them like their own and to take on three is even more impressive. 

Just a year ago even me, mom of three, wouldn't have fathomed taking on that sort of responsibility. But I've learned a lot over the past few months and I finally realised that when you find someone that you absolutely love, the fact that they have kids is an added bonus, not a deterrent. And when you love someone you love all of them. 

The way Seth's eyebrow raised when I told him I had three kids and was going through a not-so-tidy divorce made me think he had lost all interest in me. But you know what he did? He packed up his things, kissed his grandparents goodbye, and transferred to my college on the other side of the country to be with me. This young, funny, smart guy gave up everything for me. He had lived in Florida his entire life. He was super close with his grandparents. He was on track to get a pilot slot at his university. But he gave it all up for me. 

I even told him during one of my visits to him in Tampa prior to him moving in with me that he knew if he transferred colleges he wouldn't get his pilot slot - the job he had longed for since he was in elementary school. And you know what he said? "But I'll have you."

So we dove in - head first, because it was worth it. And we took what came our way and made the most of it. It's been hard, only living together for two of the almost five years we've been married and those two years haven't been consecutive, mind you. But after going through some things these past few months - stress at work ,this crazy PCS, being away from the kids, a stupid fucking decision by a loved one that made me question so much, and realising when to let go of people...with all those things that have happened back to back to fucking back I can finally see that Seth loves me more than I ever even imagined. And I know that sounds silly because he's my husband so you probably think oh well of course he does. But I think a lot of us take it for granted when someone loves us that much. We may focus on their weaknesses. We may focus on the tough times. But after dealing with so much these past few months  I've realised that there aren't a lot of people that truly would risk it all for another. There aren't many people that have everything going for them and yet would chance it all for a wide-eyed girl with the mouth of a sailor and three kids in tow. Because there's a fear of the unknown. There's a need in most to get the timing right. People are afraid of change. Or doing what's best for them. But there's a phrase I love that goes: If we wait until we're ready, we'll be waiting for the rest of our lives.  

So Love, thank you for not waiting. Thank you for jumping right in. For choosing me. For choosing us.  

Happy Father's Day yesterday, today, and everyday...to the wittiest, best pancake making, high flying daddy ever. We love u baby. 

Xo,

Lor